Living through a stressful situation that I can do absolutely nothing to change. I am both a chronic worrier and an optimist. Not sure how those two go together, but most of the time they work each other out. Like if a situation arises that is stressful, I worry about it for a while, then get sick of being stressed, so I decide to do something about it so that I can be happy again. Usually, there is always something to do--whether that be to talk to someone, take action to fix it, or change my mindset so that I can handle the stress.
But sometimes situations are just so stressful and out of my hands, that I can't do anything to fix them. And I can't change my mindset, because it deals with basically my WHOLE FUTURE LIFE.
Remember when I got accepted into UNLV's Marriage and Family Therapy program? Yeah, that was a really happy time. I was so pleased with myself, and felt really good about what I was doing.
Then a few days ago President Smastrek decided to cut the M&FT program. Now I don't know what is going to happen. I am "supposed" to get enough time to finish, but I don't really understand how I can finish when there isn't a program or professors. And why would professors want to stay with the program, when they know that in a few years they are going to loose their jobs? Answer: they wouldn't.
So, I don't know what is going on with my life, or my future. If I have to work as a Chiropractic Assistant for the rest of my life, I might die. Seriously, I think I probably would. Nothing against CA's...it's just not the life for me.
And now I am stressed. I thought I had a plan for my future, a plan that I was happy with and that made me feel peaceful inside. Now I am a raging torrent of worry, fear and despair.
I really don't do well with this kind of stress.
(This is pretty much what I look like when I am stressed. Not a pretty picture.)
9 comments:
I'm so sorry things aren't going as planned, that's got to be such a hard thing to go through. Thanks for sharing though. I know everything will work out for you guys. Hang in there!
I stress about everything, but with no optimism, so you've impressed me, AGAIN!
When I read that you had "a plan that I was happy with and that made me feel peaceful inside" my immediate thought was that this will all work out (you must realize this is coming from the "glass half-empty kind of gal" so you must be shocked, I'm sure.) I usually try to keep my spiritual thoughts to myself, since I doubt most people really care, but I just felt I should tell you that I really did get the feeling that you should remember how you felt with that "peaceful inside" and go with it. But then, what do I know, other than that you're a very smart lady.
We had to go through that a little with Mark's program. Luckily he finished before more drama started. I just dont understand. There is obviously a demand for these programs. Students paying for them = instructors being paid. Right? One positive thing.....Jeff still has his program. Hope that is going well.
If it will make you feel better, I know where we can get a hold of some pitchforks and torches. I hear Carson City is lovely this time of year. :)
oh man that sucks so bad! I'm so sorry. isn't is the worst feeling when your finely tuned plan is suddenly dropped out from underneath you? but it does keep life interesting. i miss you guys!!
That sucks! I don't really know what to say- except wtf. ALSO, maybe you can check how things are next year and opt out if it's a bad environment/experience. I wonder also if there are other masters programs there that might be worthwhile. That SUCKS though. Rather powerfully. At least there are lots of great medications available for stressful times such as these!
The two mesh. I think of myself as a worrier and an optimist at the same time (both playing huge roles right now for me). Luckily, you've got the brains to work out issues, I just go on feelings and I usually doubt those. Sorry things aren't going as planned. Sometimes those detours end up being the best adventures though. I've/we've had a lot of detours and looking back it's been for the better (or at least this is what I'm needing to remind myself). Hope you find your adventure, and soon so you can feel good again.
tams mentioned the other day that she thought it was cancelled but i hadn't heard anything. that sucks! i'm so sorry! cause jeff's for sure going to unlv, right? or is that up in the air now??
ok i have your solution. are you ready for this?
you will....HAVE A BABY hahaha
you are welcome
ps thanks for helping me with the 3 column thing, that was the one i had been trying but it turned out that my layout was different, i figured it out and then didn't even like it haha so now i'm staying the same!
ps on wed Matt and Dave came for a meeting at my new work, SO FUN! Plus Pace Mannion, you remember him?
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