I'm having a love/hate relationship

with this blog. I love it, and I also don't love it.  But I can't really describe why I don't love it.  Hmm.

I've decided to start writing a sort of autobiographical account of my life.  But this book idea isn't about the big monumental things--instead I think it will be more of the everyday sort.  I came across a quote that inspired me:

""Be present. I would encourage you - just to be present. Be present and open to the moment that is unfolding before you. Because, ultimately, your life is made up of moments. So don't miss them by being lost in the past or anticipating the future. Don't be absent from your own life."
(J. Lange's 2008 commencement address to graduates)

So I've decided to start this creative writing process, and see how it turns out. And, I've decided to do it on a blog...but not this blog.  I like this blog, but I have kind of an issue with putting too much information about myself up here.  I don't mind sharing my opinions on things or funny stories, but some stuff seems really personal, even if its not anything really PERSONAL.  You know?  Then I wonder why I even think that, because I'm pretty sure I know the 7 people who read this blog, and I don't mind sharing personal stuff with you guys.  But I guess it's just the idea that someone could, just by chance, come across the blog and find out anything and everything about me.  Kinda weird.

So, my options on this writing idea are to either do it on this blog, and make it private, or do it another blog.  I'm still not a huge fan of private blogs, so I think I might go the second route.  I don't know, it could change though.  But for now, I'm going to start it on another blog.  And no one is going to be able to see it, except for me.  

There may come a day when I will share it with people...I hope so, actually.  The whole point of writing is for reading, and I want people to read my work.  So, I think for now I'll keep it to myself, so that I am writing for myself.  If that changes later, then so be it.  But then again, it might not.

I'm excited though.  As I have gotten older, I have realized how happy I am to really live in every moment.  Some are hard moments, some sad moments, there are happy moments and funny moments too.  But each moment makes me who I am--it becomes my existence and my reality.  And, I've gotta say, sometimes I really really like my reality.  So I'm excited to explore it, and record it--I don't want to be lost in my own life.